I know it
doesn't always
seem like
it, but I am truly grateful for everything that I have.
For my families; the one I was born into and the one I've created for myself.
For the blessing of waking up every morning in our own bed with the love of my life and the most adorable cats anyone could ever ask for.
For the opportunity to live in a house I feel one hundred percent at home in, for the people in my life who refuse to give up on me even when I simply cannot be the friend they deserve.
For the rare chance to work with what I love, and what's even more rare, to be able to cut down on assignments now that my depression makes working nearly impossible.
For all of you who read my blog, write me comments and letters and make me feel so much less lonely.
I have made so many mistakes in my life, but I must have done something right to end up right where I am. Or maybe it's faith, maybe it's luck, maybe I don't deserve any of this. Either way, I'm grateful.
Sure, it's over a month until Thanksgiving, but that doesn't mean you can't still give thanks, right?
Last night, I started thinking about how lucky I am. Our stove has been broken for four days which means we've only had cold food (we don't own a microwave), as well as the heater that hasn't worked in forever - I didn't mind until now, when the outside temperature has dropped and we have to watch tv looking like we're off to a polar expedition any minute.
And still... life is pretty spectacular. I try my best to remember that, even when I eat cold pizza leftovers for dinner wearing a winter coat and woolen socks and I cry for the 10000000034576425645926892046th time about the fact that I can't call
my best friend and ask her to come over and watch the latest
How I Met Your Mother episode with me. Especially then. Because she's no longer here, but I am. And it's my duty to appreciate it; today, tomorrow and every single day until I finally join her. Otherwise, our time apart will have been all for nothing.
Life's too short for wasting. Let's try to make it count. [Insert
carpe diem cliché of your choice here - they're all true.]